Happy BIRTHDAY beautiful…ohhh this day has come again, this day I admit I often dread. This day I want to celebrate without sorrow, this day when I gave you life and kissed your tiny head…until tomorrow.
So many years ago you made me a mother, but then I lost you and life was empty and cold.
There was a happy ending even still…
Today I’m in awe that you would here be turning 36 years old.
Life on earth wasn’t meant for you, here to be. Though I’ve kept you safe in my heart I will forever yearn for your face to see, to feel your soft cheeks again and hold your tiny hands. To kiss you one more time like when your life first began. If only I’d known, I can’t even think there anymore…it’s why sometimes I can’t breathe, it’s why I get lost walking on a sandy shore. I’m still looking for you wishing I hadn’t said it’s okay. This day.
3am still wakes me and takes me back to when I was all alone. It’s still why I cringe and scream when I receive hurt through the ring of a phone.
Still…I am reminded losing you brought me more love than I could have ever known.
So wait for me in Heaven and keep the gates open wide, because when we meet again my tiny angel I’ll never let you leave my side.